Dysfunctional character
It’s nice at first meeting people in the restaurant around the table but as for someone who has a hard time saying “no” or unable to speak their voice, or with social anxiety, during the meetup with everyone in the bar I have been thinking and thinking - over and over about the whole crowded place for everyone to meet. It was an endless silence for me in a loud crowd that I am having trouble trying to learn to say “hi” to the girl in front of me or to my left. Me having panic attacks and with this noticed by one of our group had to leave with me and go outside to breathe with them ending up taking care of me and with that all I am thinking is how I am ruining the fun and how I burden them with my own mind. But of course they probably just want me to feel comfortable and relax with ease of meeting new people. This is not for me. I hope there would be a time that we don’t have to feel this way. Maybe we don’t have to go anywhere and just stay there without being asked to choose between stay or go elsewhere.
